Final entry – Mixed Feelings – Many Thoughts

I did not play any video games until the end of the week. I have found this course quite challenging. I swore I would never take another online course but I figured because it was on Video Games I would be interested enough to stay engaged. However, I have found that I let it effect my gaming more than anything else. THe subject matter is interesting and certain reading peeked my curiosity around the subject but I feel into a way of thinking that made me feel as though playing games was homework and in some regards it made playing games less fun.

I have been so busy over the last few weeks that I haven’t had time to sit and think let alone turn on my console. I downloaded the Frozen Wilds DLC for Horizon Zero Dawn yesterday and have been playing that. It is nice to be playing a game because I am super stoked on it. Even when I was before I knew that I would have to write about it and thinking about school while gaming kinda sucked. In that regard I am happy that this semester and course are coming to an end. Being as busy as I have been has been stressful and without being able to fall into video games to relieve that stress was a shame.

All in all I feel as though my gaming will be slightly different due to this course. The way I think about progress through games has changed and also the way I perceive myself while playing games. It is interesting that the things we read can change the way wee see the world and ourselves.

Thank you for pushing me and allowing me to open up to this new understanding of the way we game. It will be interesting to see how this knowledge progresses over time. I hope that I can go back to not thinking while I game and that I can regain a little more of the flow that I used to achieve.

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